When Loss Happens, Again...
Recurring Miscarriage Stories
Experiencing one miscarriage can leave a lasting ache, but experiencing pregnancy loss again and again can bring a unique kind of grief, fear, and uncertainty. With each loss, families may find themselves carrying not only the pain of losing a baby, but also the worry of wondering if they will ever bring a healthy pregnancy home. Recurring miscarriages can affect every part of a person’s journey, from the excitement of a positive pregnancy test to the anxiety that can follow each appointment, milestone, and new pregnancy. It can leave families searching for answers while navigating emotions that others may not always understand. This is a place for families walking through recurrent miscarriage to find understanding, compassion, resources, and hope. You are not alone, and your babies are not forgotten. Here, we honor every baby, every pregnancy, and every heart that continues to hope through unimaginable loss.
Baby Vaughn 1, 2, & 3
On May 22, 2020, we lost our first baby. We didn't know I was pregnant, and after being evaluated in the ER, we were told that the best option was for me to have a D&C. We were heartbroken, and although we didn't know about our baby until that moment, we would carry that loss with us forever.
On September 26, 2020, we lost our second baby. This time, we knew I was pregnant, and we were so excited to become parents to an earth-side baby. When I began bleeding, I was told that it was probably normal, but deep down, I knew something wasn't right. We went to our first ultrasound appointment, hoping for reassurance, only to hear the words no parent ever wants to hear: “I'm so sorry. The baby is gone.”
Then came September 26, 2023. Yes... you read that correctly, exactly three years to the day after losing our second baby, we lost our third. Once again, we knew we were pregnant and were filled with hope and excitement. Just like before, I began bleeding and was told it was more than likely normal. When we went in for our ultrasound, I knew something was wrong by the look on the ultrasound tech's face. Once again, we heard a parent's worst nightmare: “I'm sorry. There is no heartbeat.” About a week later, my body naturally miscarried.
To our first three angel babies: thank you for making me a Mama. Maybe not in the way I always dreamed it would be, but you gave me a love that I will carry for the rest of my life. You were here. You were loved. You mattered.
I may not have gotten to hold you in my arms, but you will always be held in my heart. I can't wait for the day we are all reunited. Until then, I will love you, remember you, and carry you with me always.
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In 2022, we lost two precious babies.
Our first loss was a blighted ovum, and then just a few months later, we experienced a missed miscarriage, only two weeks after seeing our sweet baby’s heartbeat.
Our hearts were broken. We were left with so many questions and no answers as to why.
The week I was supposed to go for genetic testing to hopefully begin finding some of those answers, I found out I was pregnant again with our double rainbow baby.
She is everything to us and more. She brought so much light into a season that had held so much heartache.
We still miss our two littles in Heaven, and we always will. They will forever be a part of our family and our story. But we are so thankful for the reminder that even after the darkest seasons, there can still be light at the end of the tunnel.
With God, all things are possible.
- Makayla Coake
Baby Coake 1 & 2
